Jessica's Personality Profile

Jessica's Personality Profile





Nothing that I didn't already know from my own personal awareness, but I love that it can all be stored in one place :)

A Rare Breed... One-of-a-kind!

I'm certainly one-of-a-kind. I'm an INFJ personality type, which is THE RAREST of all 16 types, accounting for only 1-3% of the population. I'm also EQUALLY middle-brained... which is so rare, I can barely find any research on it. Most people tend to lean towards one side or the other, one side will always have more dominance... nope, not me! Instead my brain is always at a constant battle with itself. Internally, I have way more going on inside my head than anyone could realize. To some, I might come across as shy, or snobby, or quiet, or stand-off-ish... but those close to me know that this is not the case at all! Sometimes I'm just too busy internally processing everything going on around me AND inside me. Although my natural charicteristics tend to be timid and shy at first, this is just how I am before I am completely comfortable with someone.... which, to my dismay, does indeed take a very long time to get to that point.

So what you see is certainly not what you get! I'm a complicated puzzle, and only those who I fully trust and allow in, will be allowed to see ALL the pieces. And even then, good luck trying to figure me out ;). I'm just hoping that one day, the right person will take the time to uncover the real me deep inside... all the rest of ya are missing out!! :)

Discovering Dream Boards

As you can see, I can never seem to "commit" to a project and FOLLOW THROUGH to FINISH it. I've got tons and tons of scrapbooks, Art Journals, "Happy Books", crafts, websites, and many various creative projects STARTED... I'm always having these inspirational ideas... then never really seem to get past the first step. I need to find a way to overcome that. I blame it on my "lack of time" but then there are times where I hunger to work creatively on something, then stare blankly at it for hours, accomplishing nothing. :(

Right now I'm in one of those, Creative Personal Growth moods. I like to call it "Jessica Time". I've been surfing e-courses and dreaming about how much I would love to take one (they are VERY expensive and require the dedication to COMMIT... a trait which I lack.) And I JUST moments ago discovered Dream Boards.

I'm basically just compiling a blog of links/references for later... when I force myself to MAKE the time to explore my creative pursuits. I'm kind of hoping Hurricaine Irene traps me in the house all day tomorrow so that I can have an EXCUSE to make things happen!! I'm so intrigued by collages and dreams (like 50% of my purchased blank journals have the word "Dream" on the cover!) and I can't wait to research more and create my first one!

<3

Oprah's Take on Dream Boards:
http://www.oprah.com/packages/o-dream-board.html

How to Make a Dream Board:
http://www.wikihow.com/Make-a-Dream-Board

Motivational Life Coach Dream Board:
http://www.qualified-lifecoach.com/Dream-Board.html

Book That I Want (Where I first learned about a "Dream Board" and googled it):
http://bigdreamssmallwonders.com/workbook-planner/


Now, I'm off to locate some magazines! I know I have thrown most of them out over the years, but I have also been collecting "cut outs" for many years as well, hoping to one day do SOMETHING with them. (aka another perfect example of an "idea" that never made it past the first stage of the project!) Now I've just got to find them!!

Sunday - August 21st, 2011

R.I.P. Kristin C. Gagne


Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors
Oh, life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even gray, but she buries her baby

Saturday's Picture :)

Did a family (brothers & sisters) photo shoot on the beach this fine evening! So much fun! Had to snap a couple cell pictures too of course!

Better Late than Never!

Photo from yesterday evening... having fun enjoying summer instead of being home to post the photo of the day :)

Photo Challenge - Photo of the Day

August 17th - Lemon & Blueberry

#757 on the August Break 2011

Today's Photos:

Photo of the Day ~ August 15th

Photo 1 of "the August Break 2011" :)

Creative August Photo Project!

Idea from: Susannah Conway

I will have to wait to post my first photo when I can get on an actual computer!

P.S.- This is so incredibly difficult to do on a tablet as opposed to a computer! (If only I could figure out how to "touch" select and copy/paste! lol)

THEME of the WEEK :)

I would like to try something new (and fun!) for whomever would like to participate! You can choose to share your input/ ideas/ accomplishments with all of us, or you can choose to make this a more private or personal goal. :)I would like to introduce a little "game" where we can establish a certain "goal" for the week. The simple act of declaring a goal or theme for the week (or even for the day!) can plant a mental seed that has the suggestive power to make it happen. You can be quite surprised by the results. Having a theme will automatically focus your thoughts. Try gratitude, for example. You'll notice more things about your life to be grateful for than at any other time. Spend a few minutes each morning deciding (or remembering) your theme for the day/week. Your days will look better and better. :)

WEEK 1: PATIENCE ♥

~"Patience serves as a protection against wrongs as clothes do against cold. For if you put on more clothes as the cold increases, it will have no power to hurt you. So in like manner, you must grow in patience when you meet with great wrongs, and they will then be powerless to vex your mind." -Leonardo da Vinci

(Ok ok, so we're Mainer's and no matter how many layers we put on, it's still freezing in the winter. Mr. da Vinci however, was nice and toasty in Italy, much closer to the equator! But the principal still applies. He makes a good point. You can save yourself from making a lot of mistakes if you have patience!)

~"The keys to patience are acceptance and faith. Accept things as they are, and look realisitically at the world around you. Have faith in yourself and the direction you have chosen." -Ralph Marston

~"Patience is the ability to idle your motor when you feel like stripping your gears." -Barbara Johnson

JUST REMEMBER:

Patience can't be acquired overnight. It is just like building up a muscle. EVERY DAY YOU NEED TO WORK ON IT. ♥


So for this week, I ask you guys to have PATIENCE in your life... with the children, with others, with crazy drivers that cut you off, with waiting in the long line at the store when you only have 3 minutes left of your break, and with any situation that would normally work you up or tick you off. PRACTICE taking a deep breath and remind yourself that PATIENCE is the theme this week! :)

And LET US KNOW HOW IT GOES!!!!!! Good luck guys :)

What is a True Friend?

"A true friend is one who overlooks your failures and loves you despite your faults. A true friend stands by and helps in times of need instead of putting you down and pointing out your flaws. A true friend never throws past mistakes in your face, but instead shows compassion and understanding when you stumble & fall. A true friend can be trusted, and is faithful and loyal to the death. A true friendship is based on unconditional love and genuinely wanting what is best for each other. A TRUE FRIEND STABS YOU IN THE FRONT........" -Me

A friend accepts us as we are yet helps us to be what we should.

When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares. ~Henri Nouwen

A true friend unbosoms freely, advises justly, assists readily, adventures boldly, takes all patiently, defends courageously, and continues a friend unchangeably. ~William Penn

A friend is a person with whom I may be sincere. Before him I may think aloud. I am arrived at last in the presence of a man so real and equal, that I may drop even those undermost garments of dissimulation, courtesy, and second thought, which men never put off, and may deal with him with the simplicity and wholeness with which one chemical atom meets another. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

Oh, the comfort, the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with a person, having neither to weigh thoughts nor measure words, but pouring them all out, just as they are, chaff and grain together, certain that a faithful hand will take and sift them, keep what is worth keeping, and with a breath of kindness blow the rest away. ~Dinah Craik

Drama Queen?!

I'm a very private person. But at the same time, I'm a very passionate and sometimes overly emotional girl. I'm also a writer, so when I feel strongly about something, it comes out in words on the paper (or on the computer screen if you rather). In turn, a lot of people misjudge me and label me as a "drama queen". That couldn't be further from the truth, and their stereotyping really bothers me. I'm actually a person that shies away from all attention, and become a complete bright red mess when the focus is shifted to me. But my writing is what helps heal me. And like I said, I'm intensely passionate. So most people consider my extensive use of descriptive adjectives, "dramatic". No, I'm not looking for any sort of attention or sympathy when I express how deeply I feel about a particular issue. I'm a water sign, a cancer, and my range of emotions runs wide and deep. Expressing them, whether verbally by venting, or in writing, is my way of coping. Once it's off my chest, then I always feel a lot better. Whether its in a letter that I'll never send or posted as a status message on a social networking site.

I admit that in the PAST, my "dramatics" used to be a little excessive. Back when my life was a mess and my head was screwed on crooked. Immaturity, insecurity, and a lack of coping methods all played a role in the "old me". I flew off the handle at the littlest thing and I had a crisis at least once a day. It usually ended up being broadcasted via phone call or status message just because letting it all out seemed to make the problem a little less serious and easier to handle. I also have always responded, first and foremost, emotionally. I think with my heart, not with my mind. And my reactions automatically sprout from the intense emotions that I feel instead of taking the time to process the situation logically and think. But I have done a hell of a lot of reprogramming in my brain so that now I can take a step back and think, "Is this really as bad as it seems? Am I creating this into a bigger issue than it needs to be?"

Do you have any idea how frustrating it is to know that you are making positive changes in your life and your behavior... yet everyone around you is so focused on how you've "always been" that they fail to see your progress? Lately, my words have been automatically misinterpreted as negative complaints or people just assume that I am stressed about a situation that in the past would have normally caused me a great deal of angst. My friends and family are so stuck on how I used to act (and react) in the past that they are blinded by the changes that I've worked so hard on. I know that I'm making these positive changes for MYSELF, I just wish that the others around me would recognize my progress instead of leaving me tainted with the stigma that once enthralled my life...

Who I Am...

"I am not successful at being flirty. Or sexy. I'm awkward and I do stupid shit (like fall in the ocean), when I attempt to portray that image. I am just not a graceful girl. But hopefully someday, there will be a guy that finds this part of who I am cute and suave . Someone that finds my awkward clumsiness adorable and alluring. That is possible, right!?"



Sometimes, I'm clueless and I'm clumsy
But I've got friends who love me,
And know just where I stand
It's all a part of me
And that's who I am...

-Who I Am, Jessica Andrews

My First Post- "The List"

My horoscope today reads: You have a lot to be grateful for -- do yourself a favor and start making a list.
So I figured I'd do just that for this "historical" first entry, haha.

1. Well first off, I'm alive. On good days, that's something to be thankful for. But if you ask me again tomorrow, it may change. ;-)
2. I have the most amazing job in the world. Infact, I'm sitting here at work right now doing this. I'm on the computer all day, and for the most part it's stress free! My bosses take extremely good care of me, and are a combination of a mentor-father-friend... more than any boss I've known or had prior. I can talk to them about anything, and tell them more things about my life than I even tell my own father.
3. I have the ability and money to TRAVEL THE WORLD. In 2008 alone, I made it to London England, Sofia Bulgaria, Skopje Macedonia, and Las Vegas Nevada. In a month from now I'm heading to Florida (for the 5th time, so not really anything special). I've been to California, Arizona 4 or 5 times, and all over New England. More than anything I want to go to Greece. Maybe Italy one day. And definitely back to Las Vegas!!
4. My friends are my angels, my saving grace. Most have been there since childhood, or at least 7-8 years. Lifelong friends. I've gotten rid of the bad seeds who brought me down. Although some may have drifted away or moved, I still keep them close in my heart. Every friend I've had has affected me in some way and made me who I am today.
5. My parents. As much as I hate to admit it, I am thankful for everything they've done for me. There's still a lot of resentment and anger, but they've taught me many lessons in life and always provided for all my needs. I had a better childhood than most. I was spoiled with love instead of material things. My mother devoted her entire life to raising me. Sacraficed so many things, went without so that I could have. My dad supported us financially, put a roof over our heads, and had enough left over for us to take family vacations, pay for my many years of dance, tennis, piano lessons and so much more.
6. Every "materialistic" item I own. I'll always have days where I wish I had what someone else does, but when I look in my own room, my closet, my house, I realize I still have much more than many unfortunate people. I'm driving a brand new car thanks to all of my savings and hard work, carry around a Blackberry in my Coach purse; and I'm really not trying to boast or brag, I'm just showing appreciation for what I do have. You've always got to be thankful for what you have and not spend time worrying about what you don't.
7. I'm grateful for SUMMERTIME, especially in Maine. This is Vacationland, and anyone who dares to disagree, I will gladly prove you wrong. I'm grateful for the seasons (all except for winter, sorry but I've GOT to complain about something). I live 10 minutes from the closest beach, that you can follow for miles in either direction. 10 minutes from the countryside, where the horses roam the farms and fresh vegatables are grown. 10 minutes from the city, with all the hustle and bustle and boutiques and restaurants and city-folk. 10 minutes from town, where the locals gather for coffee and breakfast and small businesses prosper. 10 minutes from the woods, with rivers, hiking trails, nature, and where (if you're lucky) you see whitetail deer feeding. And maybe not 10 minutes, but an hour or so from the mountains where you can rock climb and ski and feel like you're on top of the world. I can't think of any other place on earth that offers all of this plus more! This is what I call HOME ♥
8. I'm grateful for all the children that bring me so much joy (and for not having any of my own yet!!). My little ones at daycare, all of my friend's kids, the ones I babysit, and the ones I get to watch grow. Children make me so happy, and can make me forget about the bad mood I may be in or the problems I'm having with the rest of the world because I can escape so easily into theirs. I can't wait to have my own. Just not anytime soon!! :)
9. I'm thankful for love. Although I can sometimes be a bitter cynic, I'm thankful that true love exists and I cannot wait to experienece it! I dream of the day that I meet my soulmate, the one person (other than my best friend) that understands me better than I know myself, and who loves me just as much as I love them. The kind of stuff you see in movies or read in books. I'm a hopeless romantic and I believe in fairy tales and dreamers dreams... and fireflies.
10. One last thing to wrap it up. I'm grateful that I took the time to sit here and think about all the things I have to be thankful for. I could list millions more, but I'm sitting here feeling just a little bit better about myself and life and all the wonderful things that I'm blessed with. :)